And you think you're a cool cat.
Thanks for your vulnerability & sharing... this is "doing the work"! I've noticed the same tendencies in myself (as well as pretty pronounced ADD on Zoom calls) thanks to remote life. Haven't found a therapist to my liking yet, so Julia Cameron's morning pages exercise are my current format for understanding my subconscious tendencies and breaking loops/ unserving habits. What's been most incredible for me in my spiritual/ self-awareness journey the last 5-7 years is just how rich and beautiful life can be if we choose to embrace the complexities & *human-ness* of this experience.